In the darkest night

'Let me hold your hand'... these were the last words I could say to you, while you fade away throug the crowd. I lost you from my eyes, I lost you from myself, but I get something I might save forever... your smile. Now i'm alone, again, thinking about all the things that could happen, thinking about me, thinking about you. All this road we walk, and all this whipping i'm feeling, all this anxiety that is killing me from the deepest cell inside me.

'Please, dont let me go'... You didn't hear me, anyway you were so far away, prolly, no matter how hard i'd screamed, you'd never have listened to me. The darkest night is comming, and will take all I have. 'The night is dark and is full of terrors', as R'hllor priest would say, and you know which is my greatest terror. You'll fade away through my dreams, doesnt matter witchever i'll do.

Now I'm mine, and i'll keep smiling cuz i know all the things i did made me happy, nevermind the stuff i sacrificed. I feel some tranquility, and it's kinda weird, my brain just told to me things like 'Roooarrgh uh roo' or 'Huwaa muaa mumwaa', like some wookie shit. Random words aboard over my head, and some shitty minding that make me think you're most far than you are. I think, something that could make me smile should be here forever... at least in my mind.

Now the night is here, the darkest night is over my head... it's over me and finally i must fight it with some fucking wood sword and a lame shield, lame as me. The only I have is your smile in my pocket and some of bravery in my heart. I will fight this with all I have, till my last sigh, till my last bloody drop of sweat... i will win this fucking fight between me and my head, and when this happen, i'll be totally happy, i'll be in total peace.

'I love you'... these were the last words i wish i could say to you.